Hmm.. been mugging for weeks, and its one more week before we're all free. But then, its been a long struggle for everyone. The thing is, this is the last test we can afford to screw up, i suppose. The last time we're going to have a 'safety net' to catch us if we get owned. After this, if we don't do well once, that's it. We're splattered.
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Somehow, these days, i don't feel like i used to. It used to be that whenever i aced a test (and believe me, it happened quite often) i'd be really happy, and that day would be like, special. Because i'd proven my ability once again. But now, I don't feel that joy of success anymore. Somehow or other, i think i'm more emotionless and serious now. Like, when i owned a hist test with 80++% in the past i'd be like "OH YEAH PWNAGE 4.0!!" Now, recently, when i'd gotten something in that range for a hist CCT, i didnt feel much. Just felt good when i got the paper back, but after that it faded rather quickly. Same went for Physics, and at some time previously, Bio. Maybe it's because i've realized that whatever i do, whatever i've gotten, it's not going to be enough. Like how i ace a good number of tests, then miss the 4.0 overall for a subject by just that bit. all because of a bad test or two. And i don't feel that anxious about exams as i used to. I used to feel that they were really important, that they were the most important thing in life. But now, it doesnt seem to be the case anymore. Maybe that's why i've lost some of my academic drive, although i'm trying as hard as i can now to study for the EOYs. And for some reason... i think that even if i get a 3.73 or something overall by the end of the year, i won't really feel elated or anything. That's just the way it is now.
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Call it stress or anything, but i think that this year has really taken its toll on me, and most students, for that matter. i just feel really tired and exhausted now. not just physically, but more importantly, mentally. i guess i'll just have to push on now, since its only 1 week to the end. But i know that no matter what i get, overall, i'll be proud of myself. because i did the best i could. and because there's always another chance next year. I'm still doing my best. But i'm not going to blame myself and go into depression if i don't ace this. I'm going to give myself the due rewards for my effort all year, or it'll carry on to next year, the stress and all. I guess i'll end here. Bye world.
# posted by
Tai | 5:31 PM
Digimon Tamer
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Digimon Exist
I’ve always wanted to do this, for quite a long time now. So I think I’d best do it while there’s still time… before everyone goes into full gear for the EOYs. T.T
So! Starting off our philosophical debate, we have our thesis statement: Digimon Exist. That’s right, you didn’t read it wrongly. Don’t pretend you didn’t see it. ;) Seriously speaking, they do exist. Now let’s move on to the premises.
Premise 1: Digital data is known to be a state of existence. It is said that data exists.
Premise 2: Digimon, like all other characters in console games and the like, consist of data. They are programmed into a recognizable form that can be represented on the TV or computer screen, enabling us, as humans, to see them. Of course, there are added features, like special attacks and the like, but these too consist of data.
Conclusion: Digimon exist! It’s as simple as that.
Now, before we get into an uproar or anything about this conclusion, some people might think, ‘oh, so are we saying that Pokemon exist too?’ Here’s where the crucial difference is. Pokemon, by right, are supposed to exist in an entirely fictional world, where they are an integral part of the people’s lives. They help to protect their Trainers, and help to cook, etc. I’m not saying that all this is impossible. For all we know, there may be another planet that has all these stuff. But, the thing is, they are created by Nintendo such that they have to coexist with humans, and can actually interact with them continually. Based on the fictional universe in which they are created, they are meant to be organic life forms. The humans can play with them, cuddle them, etc. Otherwise, they cannot be classified as the ‘Pokemon’ that we are referring to. So, since they have not as yet been proven to exist in any explored area of the universe, we can assume that they do not exist at the moment. But Digimon are created such that, well, they are digital monsters. They are meant to exist as data. The only reason why the characters in the shows and games can interact with them is because they consist of data as well. And with AI like in Digimon World on the Playstation, Digimon more or less have their own behavioral and interactive aspects. So here is the problem: we humans cannot interact with them at present, because we do not have the technology required to transcend the barrier between us: we are organic life forms, while Digimon are made of data. If, one day, we are able to convert ourselves into a cybernetic form, i.e. data, we would most likely be able to enter that world as well, and interact with them as we might like to. So it’s not that Digimon don’t exist. They exist in cyberspace, and it’s only that we are unable to reach them at present. So, in conclusion, Digimon DO exist.
So, that concludes our philosophical thesis and discussion on Digimon. To all Digimon fans, I’m proud to announce that Digimon exist!
# posted by
Tai | 11:23 PM
Digimon Tamer
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Test Week OVER
Yea test week over! Think i did rather well for chem this time.. surprise, indeed. Had a stomachache from the beginning, but of course I wasn't fool enough to waste 10 mins of test time in the toilet. So 忍 until the end lol. Haha first time using chi character here. Anyway as any sane person would see I was severely disadvantaged from the beginning :( But still I managed to finish the paper! Sadly i got the bonus wrong i think... made a wrong split-second decision/guess. Anyway I did it against overwhelming odds =) It was tough though. An excruciating pain the the abdomen every 5 minutes for 45 minutes is no joke. Anyway, it kinda served as a motivation towards the end, since i was left with like 10 minutes to finish the last 1 1/2 pages, must've shocked my brain into alertness, since it was first period, cos i just chionged down the last few qns and even had time to try the bonus! Haha. Anyway i think i did well for bio too. Hopefully i'll get 4.0 for both tests =) Have fun slacking all!
# posted by
Tai | 3:27 PM
Digimon Tamer
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Exam Week
Oh damn. Exam week again. Arrgh. For some reason school keeps spamming us with exams...man this sucks. And we have TWO ccts. Bio and chem. Not to mention a load of projects... Hai. Translation -- gg. And... i think my gpa may be rather screwed. Not that i didnt try. With lousy group members and whatnot, i think i just lost my 4.0 for english. Bloody slackers. Maybe i ought've exposed them or smth, make them minus marks for uber slacking. But. I'm a kind person. So i decided to spare them the pain.
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Enough of whine posting.. Talk about something cheerful bah. Seems that this yr's NDP is rather good after all. Gd job to the participants *hint hint*. And recently, before test period came up, i guess i had quite a bit of fun. Which is good! Fun isnt really something that we can put in our vocab that often i'm afraid. So.. a bit of fun does help to lighten one's spirits. Haha and i owned for Blog Article Review for English again! 2nd time i'm getting an almighty imba 18/20!! Muahahaha. Means on average each article is like 9/10, which is a whopping 90%! Hehex imba right.. Think it's the highest in class or something. Totally pwnage!
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So. For everyone who's taking Chem and Bio (Actually i think EVERYONE), gd luck... there's a shit lot to mug, i know. But after this, hey, only assignments are left right? Which are a lot more fun/relaxed to do compared to mugging for a test. Survive this week and its all over. For a long time, cos the CTs are like how far away. Far enough to get a good lot of R&R i'd say. So glhf all, and DONT GIVE UP! XD
# posted by
Tai | 11:35 PM
Digimon Tamer
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Freaking shit.
------------------In times of need u see what some people are like. When they asked for help, I readily helped them, yet when i'm sorely in need of something everyone suddenly becomes deaf. Ask some people for notes on SS cos the bliddy teacher didnt give us any and I get an interesting variety of answers, 95% of which are non-committal or obviously dunwan to help. It's either 'No', or 'Nope' or 'Go see Wikipedia' or 'Just mug your own notes la' - I mean come on, if i had my own bloody notes i wouldnt be asking for help right? then one pro answer 'Wa tl (Tough Luck) lor nothing i can do anyway'. i mean wt* is this? If u all ask me for help and stuff i'd help right, why cant u all just do the same? For obvious reasons half of those answers above arent real at all ok. Its so bloody obvious that some ppl got stuff and dont want to help, it wouldnt fool a 3-yr old kid. I think there's no point in being nice to some people if they're so selfish when its their turn to help. Solo projects for what? Should just tell the teacher that those people never contribute and make them get penalties right? F***ing noobs. Next time I wont be so nice anymore. Those mentioned above, you know who u are. Shame on you people, to accept another's help and forget about it totally. F*kers.
# posted by
Tai | 5:03 PM
Digimon Tamer
Friday, July 13, 2007
Emo.
---------Sian. recently been feeling really tired.. not just because of all the mugging for the tests, but also mentally.. and sadly there's chi, maths and physics test in week 5, which means a whole lot more mugging nxt week. i guess students like us just dont have the luxury of being really free. i try to enjoy, to play, but somehow i keep feeling worried cos the tests are coming up. not to mention some ppl keep kpkb-ing. but that's another story...--------how nice it would be if we had less homework, less tests, and just a more balanced play-work ratio. i mean, look at our current schedules. its like every week got 2-3 tests, and we have to mug for all of these cos if we dont, we might do badly, as every one of them contributes a small part to our overall grade. seriously, the system is damn badly screwed up. i really miss the old system of last year, which was a whole lot more balanced. 2 medium-scale tests per year and a couple of common-class-tests periods are much better than like, 1 big test at the end of year, then having tests like twice every week. dun understand whey they still use such a cocked-up system.--------hai feel so exhausted. this, well, is definitely not my idea of a good secondary sch life. too much stuff to do, too busy, and not much enjoyment. they really shouldnt give us so much stuff to do. hopefully DMP season will come soon.. then maybe i'll have a chance to not be stressed at last. really hope so. anyway.. going to be really busy on the weekend. time to end off i guess.-------noob paunch. hmph.
# posted by
Tai | 11:05 PM
Digimon Tamer
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Slack!~
Update!
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So, the week's tests are over! yeah!! after 1 week of mugging n stressing and whatnot its oveeer~ time for some good solid slacking. tho there's a test the week after nxt. but that's a long way off. Sadly i kind of erm... did *very* well for bio, like quite a no. of others, but its a pity.. study so much for it then kena this kind of thing. On a brighter note i did relatively well for chem i'd say! At least currently like -1? if unlucky 2 marks after checking with others. which isnt that bad, since i didnt do the chem practice assignments and simply mugged the night before =/ somehow i managed to finish the whole paper with a reasonable 'confident' feeling at the end. just hope i dun have too many careless mistakes... shud be able to get 3.6+ for this one anw.
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And yes, Digimon World: Data Squad is coming out on PS2 this Sept! excellent! reading the reviews i discovered that this game's probably gonna own, with a good game system (not like world 4) and of course nice graphics! this may well be the first Bandai Digimon success in a few years. Hehe looking forward to this of course. DMP will give me quite alot of time to play other than mugging for the big CT, which really is nice.
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Now i wonder, how many people in RI really have good friends, or even a best friend? for some reason there seem to be many ppl who 'spam' friends, like choosing quantity over quality... could it be that they're trying to benefit materialistically from these friendships... well i wont say its like, bad or wrong, but i just dont believe in this sort of friendship. if u want to be friends with someone, not just aquiantances, u jolly well should treat each other with trust and help each other than in need lor.. liddat then called friendship what. otherwise its like a cold business deal where both sides agree to trade stuff like 'i lend u this to scan u lend me ur rubik's cube arh' kind of thing. something that materialistic isnt really a friendship.. those who do that, seriously, ought to change their mentality abit. one wouldn't enjoy their secondary years like that la..
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Anyway guess wat i've been doing today... slacking! like duh. abit ez to tell. haha. first time i've been able to really do this in weeks. as in really slacking without having to worry about work and stuff. which really is nice. which is why i'm posting this blog entry here, lol. anyways not much work today, so its kind of lax. haha.
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Waiting for Digimon World: Data Squad. Faster comeout la!!
# posted by
Tai | 5:53 PM
Digimon Tamer
Trainer: Tai
Age: 14
Birthday: Hi
Lurves: DIGIMON
Hates: Non-Digimons, excluding myself
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